The Left One

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“We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heroes or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.”

- Chuck Pahlaniuk

A lovely anon asked me about my thoughts on the “It’s all you” yesterday night. Back then however I was not able to properly put into words some thoughts. After having slept on all the delicious spoilers we got at SDCC, I may be a bit better at being able to explain a theory on what it might imply.

Let’s take a closer look at that promo. We have two separate scenes cut together. One where Dean is apparently seated (this must be when Demon!Dean is tied up as Jensen said in the panel) and the other, where Dean seems to first enter the bunker again and hunts down Sam.

The dialogue in these 60-seconds-clip has so much ~gravitas in how it sets up the themes of the season and how it relates to both Winchesters and there are a couple of questions to be asked based on what we know from spoilers:

Why does Dean come back to the bunker when he doesn’t want to be found?

Is he coming back solely because of what Sam did to find him?

What are Demon!Dean motives and does he really want to kill his brother?

What did Sam do?

All three questions are pretty entwined and hard to entangle imo since they sort of relate to one another, but the main thing they all circle around is the notion of “What makes you you?”, "What makes a monster?" and "What have you become?" and most importantly “Do you like what you are (now)?”. So in short: It’s about identity.

The way I am making sense of it right now is that Demon!Dean wants to scare Sam and get him to back off. I don’t think he truly wants to kill or hurt his brother. But I also think it’s not the only reason he confronts Sam. He likes the tension and - especially now that he is a demon and what demons are good at is playing mind games (hell, Dean even calls it just that: "Come on, Sammy. I’m tired of playing. Let’s finish this game!") - and he is after seeing Sam’s reaction. Not only to his newfound self, but also in relation to Dean holding up a mirror to him. What Dean is doing in this whole clip is toying with Sam, like a cat with a mouse and he loves it, because he feels superior. What I find particularly interesting is that I kind of feel like in a twisted way Demon!Dean - even though total psychopath - not only comes ~home to taunt Sam and tell him he is a monster, but maybe also because deep down, he didn’t want Sam to go down that route. Yes, somewhere stored away far far in the back of Dean’s head, I think there is a spark of ~worry in him. Though of course watching the scene doesn’t support that and is more of a headcanon. So to me it seems, whatever Sam did (I kind of think he killed an innocent person, possibly slitting that person’s throat? I don’t know the way Dean leaned into the blade and his words sort of made it seem as if he knew perfectly well that this certain movement and action is connected to what made Sam in Dean’s eyes become a monster) serves as the reason for Dean’s return.

It’s face-off between two brothers, both caught up in their respective darkness and going off the deep end. One being completely human and one being a demon. But the important thing is: None of them can use that as an excuse for their actions. Dean cannot say, it wasn’t him once he is back to Human!Dean, because it was his soul being twisted (see here for how Carver pushed that this is an important aspect to the arc), it was him and there is no rrom for rationalizing like “Oh I was possessed”. Because he wasn’t. It was him. And neither can Sam excuse his actions by saying I wasn’t myself, because I drank demon blood or whatever. Every single decision, every single action, is on both of them and that is where the line "It’s all you" comes into play and really is just such a perfect summary to everything we might get to see.

If one is looking at the line "It’s all you" in particular, there are three other lines, one has to keep in the back of one’s head as well though, because they really shed light on what the line was meant to convey.

Dean: “Guys like me, we are the natural order, it’s how it was set up”

Sam: "Guys like me, still got to do what we can"

Dean knows what he is and he is okay with it (at least at that moment, it’s going to be something entirely differne once he is ~cured). He knows he’s the bad guy and he embraces it. To the fullest. And he loves to confront Sam about his ~monsterish ways. It’s about the lines getting so blurred it’s hard to tell their even was a line to begin with…

How did Chef Leo say in 9x05 “Dog dean Afternoon”? Right…

“Guess if you eat enough predators, you start to become one…” and well if that happens it may just really be “all you”

I also felt that Sam’s holding a knife to Dean’s throat seemed telling, that this was yet another way for Dean to be taunting Sam for perhaps some of the dark things he has done in his pursuits.

And I love and agree totally that this scene is very much framed as a predator playing with his prey, because demon!Dean, as a similar demon to his ‘maker’ Cain, shouldn’t need to physically attack at Sam, to kick down a door, to hack through with an axe. We saw Cain snap his fingers to move furniture to make way for the demon attackers to get at Dean, so theoretically Dean should be able to do this too. But he’s not. And why? Perhaps because psychologically it’s crueller, more intimidating, and perhaps also, physically doing these things as opposed to using ability is more immersive for demon!Dean, he gets more out of it that way.

In love with this demon!Dean character already!!

Yes, that was my impression as well. Dean daring for Sam to make a move that would give him the possibilty to confront him with whatever dark things it were that Sam did and with that getting into Sam’s head in true demon fashion. Not with lies, but honesty. by holding up a mirror. Getting into your ~victim’s head and use what you can find in there against them.

The physical element to the fight really is something that makes this scene sort of unique (Did anybody else have to think about now Sam and Dean sort of doing what they were meant to do as Lucifer and Michael? Taking out one another?). Aside from Dean beaming himself into the same corridor as Sam, he didn’t use any of his powers (that I assume he’s got to have). And I absolutely agree that this seems more immersive for Dean and he gets a better ~kick out of it. Is it october yet?

It’s also that in the moment when Sam thrusts the blade to Dean’s throat, Dean’s eyes turn black but that’s not what Sam is looking at. He’s looking at his own hand, holding the blade, to an exposed vulnerable area. And there’s something triggering in Sam’s look, this is recognition, this is him mentally revisiting something he has done before. I think you’re spot on, Sam’s done this in his quest to find Dean, and Dean is absolutely playing on that.

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inderlander:

Come on, Sammy!  Let’s have a beer… talk about it.  I’m tired of playing.  Let’s finish this game. (x)

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Filed under jfc this is killing me both are nailing this! spoilers sorry forgot that! anyway jensen is playing psychopath perfectly demon!Dean is in the position of power and he is loving that relishing it toying with Sam enough to have him keep trying to not make him aware that he is grossly outmatched because as Stephen King has said its that little bit of hope that kills you and Dean is hitting that precisely and then Jared beautiful conflict right there because he is being stalked by someone *something* that he knows is greatly skilled and that now that skill has been perverted corrupted and he is its target he's right to be scared and you can see it in his eyes but there's also that conflict that he has his own great skills but this is his brother who he desperately wants to save because It's making me into something I don't wanna be and he is faced with the prospect of killing to save

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Here’s the video I took at the Supernatural signing.

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Filed under sdcc jensen ackles love this :)

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dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

“We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heroes or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.”

- Chuck Pahlaniuk

A lovely anon asked me about my thoughts on the “It’s all you” yesterday night. Back then however I was not able to properly put into words some thoughts. After having slept on all the delicious spoilers we got at SDCC, I may be a bit better at being able to explain a theory on what it might imply.

Let’s take a closer look at that promo. We have two separate scenes cut together. One where Dean is apparently seated (this must be when Demon!Dean is tied up as Jensen said in the panel) and the other, where Dean seems to first enter the bunker again and hunts down Sam.

The dialogue in these 60-seconds-clip has so much ~gravitas in how it sets up the themes of the season and how it relates to both Winchesters and there are a couple of questions to be asked based on what we know from spoilers:

Why does Dean come back to the bunker when he doesn’t want to be found?

Is he coming back solely because of what Sam did to find him?

What are Demon!Dean motives and does he really want to kill his brother?

What did Sam do?

All three questions are pretty entwined and hard to entangle imo since they sort of relate to one another, but the main thing they all circle around is the notion of “What makes you you?”, "What makes a monster?" and "What have you become?" and most importantly “Do you like what you are (now)?”. So in short: It’s about identity.

The way I am making sense of it right now is that Demon!Dean wants to scare Sam and get him to back off. I don’t think he truly wants to kill or hurt his brother. But I also think it’s not the only reason he confronts Sam. He likes the tension and - especially now that he is a demon and what demons are good at is playing mind games (hell, Dean even calls it just that: "Come on, Sammy. I’m tired of playing. Let’s finish this game!") - and he is after seeing Sam’s reaction. Not only to his newfound self, but also in relation to Dean holding up a mirror to him. What Dean is doing in this whole clip is toying with Sam, like a cat with a mouse and he loves it, because he feels superior. What I find particularly interesting is that I kind of feel like in a twisted way Demon!Dean - even though total psychopath - not only comes ~home to taunt Sam and tell him he is a monster, but maybe also because deep down, he didn’t want Sam to go down that route. Yes, somewhere stored away far far in the back of Dean’s head, I think there is a spark of ~worry in him. Though of course watching the scene doesn’t support that and is more of a headcanon. So to me it seems, whatever Sam did (I kind of think he killed an innocent person, possibly slitting that person’s throat? I don’t know the way Dean leaned into the blade and his words sort of made it seem as if he knew perfectly well that this certain movement and action is connected to what made Sam in Dean’s eyes become a monster) serves as the reason for Dean’s return.

It’s face-off between two brothers, both caught up in their respective darkness and going off the deep end. One being completely human and one being a demon. But the important thing is: None of them can use that as an excuse for their actions. Dean cannot say, it wasn’t him once he is back to Human!Dean, because it was his soul being twisted (see here for how Carver pushed that this is an important aspect to the arc), it was him and there is no rrom for rationalizing like “Oh I was possessed”. Because he wasn’t. It was him. And neither can Sam excuse his actions by saying I wasn’t myself, because I drank demon blood or whatever. Every single decision, every single action, is on both of them and that is where the line "It’s all you" comes into play and really is just such a perfect summary to everything we might get to see.

If one is looking at the line "It’s all you" in particular, there are three other lines, one has to keep in the back of one’s head as well though, because they really shed light on what the line was meant to convey.

Dean: “Guys like me, we are the natural order, it’s how it was set up”

Sam: "Guys like me, still got to do what we can"

Dean knows what he is and he is okay with it (at least at that moment, it’s going to be something entirely differne once he is ~cured). He knows he’s the bad guy and he embraces it. To the fullest. And he loves to confront Sam about his ~monsterish ways. It’s about the lines getting so blurred it’s hard to tell their even was a line to begin with…

How did Chef Leo say in 9x05 “Dog dean Afternoon”? Right…

“Guess if you eat enough predators, you start to become one…” and well if that happens it may just really be “all you”

I also felt that Sam’s holding a knife to Dean’s throat seemed telling, that this was yet another way for Dean to be taunting Sam for perhaps some of the dark things he has done in his pursuits.

And I love and agree totally that this scene is very much framed as a predator playing with his prey, because demon!Dean, as a similar demon to his ‘maker’ Cain, shouldn’t need to physically attack at Sam, to kick down a door, to hack through with an axe. We saw Cain snap his fingers to move furniture to make way for the demon attackers to get at Dean, so theoretically Dean should be able to do this too. But he’s not. And why? Perhaps because psychologically it’s crueller, more intimidating, and perhaps also, physically doing these things as opposed to using ability is more immersive for demon!Dean, he gets more out of it that way.

In love with this demon!Dean character already!!

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Supernatural Press Room at Comic-Con: The Cast Teases Demon Dean, Cole, Sam's Moral Dilemma and Castiel's Grace

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Following the Supernatural panel at Comic-Con, we were able to sit down with stars Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Mark Sheppard and executive producer Jeremy Carver to chat about Demon Dean, Sam’s search for his brother, angel politics and Crowley’s new demon pal. Here’s what we learned about season 10 from the press room:

The state of Demon Dean. Last season we saw Dean as a tortured soul, according to Jensen. He lost his sibling relationship and it became very business-like. He had the guilt of tricking Sam into being possessed by an angel and he had a lot riding on his shoulders last season. For season 10, he wanted to do a contrast for demon dean that was Dean without any of that stuff. That Dean is kind of the same guy but without any care in the world. It’s “scary how little he cares about every and anybody. Even himself. Even the car.” Jensen says there’s nothing funny about it at all. Dean is so carefree and careless, he’s just busy doing whatever he wants to do, whether it’s karaoke or having sex with women. He described a scene he just shot with Dean singing karaoke in a bar and everyone is booing him and he doesn’t care and just sings louder. “A lot of bar fights, a lot of booze, a lot of babes, that’s Demon Dean”. He’s a little bit more smirky, has more swagger to him. It wasn’t anything specific that Jensen was going for, it was just a mental state he was trying to get into.

Sam’s search for Dean. Jared says “we get to see fully human Sam doing things to other full humans that we wouldn’t expect. We certainly will no longer doubt Sam’s loyalty and commitment to [saving] his brother. But we do tease morals and ethics and how far one can go before they become a monster themselves. We tease that more this season than we’ve done in seasons prior.”

Cole and Sam. We know about a new character named Cole who is also searching for Dean when the season begins. Jared said that Cole is someone from Dean’s past and Sam encounters him early on before Dean does. Sam isn’t aware of how Cole knows Dean and vice versa, but Sam is in a position when he knows Dean is a demon and tells Cole that he should stop his pursuit. Jared also revealed that Cole witnessed something back in season 1 when he was ten years old and is now searching for Dean because of it.

What will happen to the brothers? Fans of the Winchester brothers’ relationship might be concerned that Dean being a demon will drive a real wedge between them this year. But Jeremy says “I feel like at the end of last season [the brothers] reached a certain good place. Not necessarily a happy place, but a good place. Dean died and even over the course of the last episode, there was a real maturation in terms of Sam accepting that Dean is walking into death and being OK with that.” That good place they were in carries on into season 10. When the season starts Sam has no idea what happened to his brother. He has some suspicions, but he’s not sure. “Sam is very hot and heavy on the pursuit. I think you’ll see the bothers, when all is said and done….I like it a lot. [It’s] something a little bit different than what we’ve seen in the past couple of years in the way they react in the aftermath. I think there’s a certain amount of healing that has to go on with it. Both acknowledge [it needs to be done] in their relationship and just on a personal level. You’re going to see the boys really, for lack of a better term, go to ground when this is done and saying ‘we need to get better’. Now, of course, the supernatural always follows them. But it’s not the same bombastic ‘you idiot!’ [reaction]. For everything they go through, they actually end up in a good place.”

What state is Castiel in? According to Misha, Castiel is finding himself getting weaker and weaker as we see him again in season 10. He says that it’s not like a human being getting sick, but his powers are very depleted. He is, however, mentally alright. Despite that, he is trying hard to help with the Demon Dean situation, although we’re not sure how helpful he can be while he’s this weak.

The key to Castiel’s grace. “I think, probably, Metatron is key to getting Cas’ grace back and Cas knows that,” Misha said. “We establish that early on in the season. And we also establish that Cas is unwilling to cooperate with Metatron or ask a favor of him. I would not be surprised if later on in the season it turns out that Metatron does end up rectifying the [grace] situation somehow. Because he certainly is, as far as we know, the one who knows how to do that or where Cas’ grace is? [Is it still in existence?] I don’t know. It seems so.”

What’s happening in Heaven? According to Jeremy, the focus in the beginning of the season is much more what’s happening with some angels on earth. The angels in Heaven have largely gotten their act together, Metatron is in jail and angels up there are trying to work things out. In terms of stability in heaven, its more stable than its been in many years.

Is Cas involving himself in heaven’s politics right now? Misha says that he’s “more grounded on earth,” but wouldn’t tell us more. He did, however, say that we will be seeing Hannah with Castiel (she was introduced last year) early on in the season and a few other new angels.

Supernatural returns for its tenth season on Tuesday, October 7 at 9:00 p.m. ET/PT on The CW.

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